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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
-10:00 PM
I was overwhelmed by the spirit. I repeated countless times that I want to be ready for God. I told myself to stand firm and not fall. But when Rev Irene East stood in front of me, God spoke through her. This is a trying season. Apparently not only for me. I realized it is the same for many of my brothers and sisters in disciple class. The message was the same. We are an angry lot of people. We fail to see what a father in like through our brokenness (family background). We fail to see Father God. How much He loves us. I realized I wrote in my blog just a day or two ago about God’s love too. Rev Irene East spoke. I could hardly make out what she said except ‘release the little girl in her’, ‘the fear of people’, ‘of what others say’ and ‘revelation of Your love’. I screamed really bad, without control. I guess many were ‘frightened’ and frankly speaking, I was too. I was conscious and yet had no command over my behaviour. The scream was somewhat in pain and anger. My arms went numb, again. I first experienced that long time ago, when I went for a visit to the disciple class. But my entire body, right up to my lips experienced numbness then, and I was sobbing for what seemed like hours. I wonder how many people believe in inner healing. I cannot deny it because I experienced deliverances countless times, of which most were minor cases. Then in the midst of unrestrained cries, a peace will just flood and fill me. That indescribable peace. That assurance of Father God’s love for me. Initially I was really concerned about how others will see me with my sudden outburst. Then I told myself, I am not going to care. It is between Father God and me. He chose to deal with me when I don’t even deserve it. He knows me as an individual and I am thus special. What a fantastic truth! I am fearfully and wonderfully made!
WILLING TO LOVE YOU
Lord, please grant me a heart that loves You
One that is forever determined and firm
Let me love You
Not with mere words from my lips
Lord, help me to totally give of myself
To serve sacrificially
Only because I love You
May You be pleased with my life
Which truly speak of
How much I love You
Lord, I am willing to totally give of myself
Willing to serve sacrificially
Only because I love You
May You be pleased with my life
Which truly speak of
Devoted love for You
It seemed all eyes were on me as the people applauded thunderously around me. But I am only the donkey ridden by the Lord Jesus. Those claps are not for me. I am nothing. The accolade is for Christ. I am only His tool.
Criticism is our best teacher. We react in anger but am I humble enough to see and pick up the nugget of truth? Humility. A leader is quick to apologise, even when his body and soul are unwilling.
