dailies
Monday, November 26, 2007
-3:35 PM
It was an overwhelmingly humid night saturated with tidal waves of heightened emotions. Many thoughts furiously ran through my mind and most importantly, why have things ended up like this? Sometimes, I want to laugh and cry at the same time. Well, it is kind of over now but who knows when the next
bubble of absurdity may burst again?
“You are one of the last people whom I want to hurt” – and that made my mind, heart and eyes cry all at the same time. I believe I can get upset and disappointed over issues but a word of apology is
enough to heal my broken heart. Genuinely, I am that soft-hearted.
Hardly survived with 30 minutes of sleep and I was like a
walking zombie. Trust me, it is quite a feat for someone my age! Haha. Not that I am ancient but I remember I could still well be in the ‘functional’ mode when I went without sleep for a night (very common then) at 20 back in Uni days.
Walking home alone at 6.15am. I know Sharon will say that I am just too
independent? Hee. Was meandering my way through the familiar path back home with almost completely empty mind. Too ‘stone’ to think for that 15 to 20 minutes.
It has been a long time since I went on a
‘blog venture’. My thoughts and what I caught…
Change is inevitable, whether they are natural or constructed.
Many happenings and even people are
seasonal.
It is
natural (and I do admit that it is
annoying at times) for people to just want to talk about themselves – tell them that you would like to be listened to instead of being upset.
It is helpful to stop talking and
listen at times – God gives us two ears but only one mouth.
Donut Factory is indeed heavenly!
Love takes lots of work, and I mean hard and
deliberate work! But the rewards melt every bit of that away.
You are
watched, wherever you go and whatever you are doing or saying.
There are people who don’t like what they see and hear – learn to
manage it?
People are
manipulative and some think they are omnipotent.
If you have nothing good to say, keep your mouth close.
Sometimes, I admire these people – how they love and go out of their way to believe in love and win their love.
Learn to say
thanks – familiarity breeds contempt.
Love – wishing that special someone every happiness even when you cannot be together.
True friends believe the best in you – but be open to listen to what unpleasant things they have got to tell about you.
Watch your back – you may be the next one to get stabbed.
Some people just don’t get it, no matter how hard you try! They think the world revolves around only them!
If he has to go through something like this, what about the rest? What about another him? I just find it hard to
stomach all these down. Nauseous!
Ah Drew got me a unique mobile phone chain from Japan but I already have one, which I really like. So I guess I will have to just display it somewhere. But I still want to thank him.
She is leaving. Another
shock. Am I dreaming? I am not questioning her decision. I am just sad. Wishing her all the best, wherever she goes.
Are they going to do something about it? Do they know what is wrong? Do they know that something is not right? Argh…
Partnering Wei Chin, Christine, Mun Loon, Benjamin and Leslie for children camp. I wish I am taken seriously.
Watched Dead Poet’s Society.
Carpe diem – seize the day! It has an ending which opens like an umbrella – do you dare to?
Wanted to clean my fan for quite some time and to my surprise, dad did it! This is the first time as far as I can recall!
I love my daddy! Hee, not just for the cleaning up.
Rachel is back! That crazy gal is attached! And her special someone looks like Timothy! I still find everything rather
unbelievable.
I think this is my
last involvement. Need a drop. Need a change. Maybe it is disappointment at work.
Was listening to the radio and this particular song caught my attention. The music is a little
exotic. Sung by Katie Melua. Visit
http://www.hyperlaunch.com/katiemelua/sailboat/!
If You Were a Sailboat
If you were a cowboy I would trail you,
If you were a piece of wood I’d nail you to the floor.
If you were a sailboat I would sail you to the shore.
If you were a river I would swim you,
If you were a house I would live in you all my days.
If you were a preacher I’d begin to change my ways.
Sometimes I believe in fate,
But the chances we create,
Always seem to ring more true.
You took a chance on loving me,
I took a chance on loving you.
If I was in jail I know you’d spring me,
If I was a telephone you’d ring me all day long.
If I was in pain I know you’d sing me soothing songs.
Sometimes I believe in fate,
But the chances we create,
Always seem to ring more true.
You took a chance on loving me,
I took a chance on loving you.
If I was hungry you would feed me,
If I was in darkness you would lead me to the light.
If I was a book I know you’d read me every night.
If you were a cowboy I would trail you,
If you were a piece of wood I’d nail you to the floor.
If you were sailboat I would sail you to the shore.
If you were sailboat I would sail you to the shore.
If you were sailboat I would sail you to the shore.
Alright, another meeting tonight at church office so better get some stuff done first, like getting ready for camp on Wednesday?
Friday, November 23, 2007
-6:11 PM
Finally, it is OVER! My last paper ended today, 23rd November 2007. Mummy cooked
breakfast for me - I feel like a little girl all of a sudden. Hee. I woke up with runny nose and slight fever though. Panicked a little but miraculously, everything was gone when I started my paper. It can only be God! I asked for prayers by smsing a few people while I was on the train. And I know they prayed!
Had lunch at Fish and Co. with Shuxin and Sylvia. Three of us shared a Seafood Platter for two. We also shared Cream of Mushroom. Then, we went for
Enchanted (so, is it a verb or adjective here?) and seriously, I wouldn’t mind watching it again! It is not recommended for diabetics though. And I want the soundtrack! One particular song caught my heart because it is enough to send any girl swoon with overwhelming saccharine emotions. Argh… …
Suddenly, it feels rather
empty. No need to bury myself in books again (for the rest of 2007)! No more of that mad rush at Boon Lay Interchange (at least, for the whole of December). No more projects to rush through (tentatively). Weird! Haahaa. But I have to catch up on many other things!
-6:08 PM
Thursday, November 22, 2007
-2:13 PM
Warning : Can be addictive!
Go to http://freerice.com/index.php!
For every word you get right, 10 grains of rice will be donated through the United Nations to help end world hunger...
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
-2:59 PM
Kenneth made me this
Elmo! Call it Papa or Mama?
Jojo seems to love the
tofu bun sold at Han's. Mich too.
Chicken Curry Katsu Don at Canteen A - my lunch after the great ordeal, Language Meaning and Use Paper.
Generous Saharah gave me these. Her boyfriend (who just came back from Australia) bought many of these goodies for her and she decided to share!
I seldom give people a piece of my mind (not that I am stingy =0, but trust me, it takes a lot of energy) but I did it again recently. Haha. I think most of the time, it is a matter of priority. Exhaustion is not an excuse because you are not working the hardest!
Commitment comes with sacrifices and if you are holding such a responsibility, you better do it well?
It is so easy to turn critical and annoyed (well, I just did) and we seem to often take blessings and positive things for granted. Also, there is a
thin line between ambitiousness and complacency. When are lids truly lids or did we just imagine them to be there? It is so perplexing and I decided to shut those negative thoughts out.
Sometimes,
tears of sorrow have to flow for lessons in life to be learnt. My heart aches for you but there is nothing I can do. Just remember, we are here for you!
I thought 'ginormous' is not a real word and it is just another wacky example of blending of words. For this, it should be a marriage between 'gigantic' and 'enormous'. However, I was wrong. New in my Word Bank. Hoho.
You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
Patience is a mark of maturity.
Anticipating... ...
Friday, November 16, 2007
-1:45 AM
You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful for comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard2 'long lost' friends contacted me recently through e-mails. So nice of them... One may come to NIE next year though he already is a doctor! Hm... ...Almost booked the ticket to go to Hainan Island with DPC as she was invited to give talks there during December. In the end, Lee Ching and I feel that it is not worth it ($700+ for air tickets alone). Let's hope that there will be more of such educational exchange programs in future! And please make them cheap?
-12:53 AM
Down with one and can’t wait for the rest to be over.
Went to JB for dinner with TomSumJo again. This time, we ate at this Japanese Restaurant at City Square. Am most impressed with the curry rice! There was this salad which they served once we settled down and it was equally superb! On our way in, I saw this car plate number ‘
SGT 2403’. Hm… date of birth for
Singapore’s
Gillian
Tan?
Sharon asks interesting questions! This time round was something on what would my
dream birthday be like. As a matter-of-fact, that never came across my mind and so I couldn’t really answer. She asked again if mine would be to spend the most unforgettable birthday with my special someone. My reply was ‘duno’ because I have yet found him. I told her frankly that I don’t know if I am just plain ‘idealess’ or easily contented. Haha. Perhaps I am more of the latter. I usually am not showered with mountainous amount of gifts. When I was young, I was satisfied so long as my birthday was remembered. I still am. Birthday cards dated as far as 1992 are still treasured in my cupboard. I just desire one thing on my birthday (alright, maybe unlimited supply of resources too – private joke among TomSum and a few others), which is to be
happy! I know, not ‘happy’ for a XX years old woman! Is this the only word in your vocabulary? Come on, I am that simple!
I find immense joy in cooking cai bu dan for mum and dad! It is such a tremendous bliss to have friends! I love the smell of rain, and the sun in my pillow and blanket. Relish ice cold cappuccino at NTU. Delight in seeing nice shades of purple.
Bought
donuts, and they are quite
pricey – sold at $1.30 each! But Sharon and I agree that they are goooood! To me, they are better than Munchy Donuts at Causeway Point.
Packed with activities even after exam! Worship practice on 24/11, Children Camp meeting on 25/11, Worship Ministry Meeting on 26/11, camp from 28/11 to 1/12, Mag’s wedding on 1/12, Worship practice on 8/12, ACL’s wedding on 14/11, trip to Taiwan from 15/12 to 21/12, Worship practice on 22/11… and Christmas and end of 2007! Frightening! And I want to go to KTV! And catch movies, go cycling, catch up with friends, play with Joash, get ready the Christmas presents, bake, swim, bring the little ones out, clear up my organized mess, shopping, catch up on my reading of books… girls, never ending list!
Am in charge of an
all boys group for the coming camp – and this is my first time in this role! And I have the rather famous Eugene and Kenneth with me! They are quite a handful but still lovely. Must start
praying for the camp!
Must be the green tea I had just now... insomnia...
-12:47 AM
Monday, November 12, 2007
-3:00 PM
Went to
JB last Thursday and to my astonishment, met a fellow NIE classmate! Can’t escape, yeah?
Icebreaker was
fun last Friday – prepared by Sharon. It was a ‘test’ of English, yet a time of laughter. Try it at
http://www.madglibs.com/showglib.php?glibid=14. Pretty cool way to teach English too!
The following questions got most of us talking during cell:
- Do you see God’s active work in the
story of Ruth or do you see the events that occur as merely coincidences?
- If you think God is actively working, how would you describe the nature of his involvement?
Caught
不能说的秘密 at TomSum’s place. Such a bizarre story, though it is very sweet.
Rachel and Emmie will be back soon! Can’t wait for the ‘
reunion’! *squeal with delight*
Been betrayed. Or should I say, made use of? Sometimes, I just don’t seem to learn my lessons… … and it
hurts. *sigh*
How can you say that you are ‘exploring the relationship’ and that she isn’t your girlfriend when you have been holding her hands?
Outrageous! Alright, maybe I am a little conservative but I still believe that this shouldn’t be the case! It doesn’t concern me anyway but I am just astonished to hear this from a seemingly mature young adult. Guess I am wrong? What has he been taught all this while? *shake head*
Went to
Botak Jones again. This time, the branch in Woodlands. The standard of food is not the same as that of the Ang Mo Kio branch. A little disappointing.
Not easy getting all the facts, case studies etc. into the brain for the approaching examination. Haha! I am not gifted with photographic memory... ...
In Christ alone
I place my trust
To find my glory
In the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
Sunday, November 04, 2007
-2:30 PM
也许我可以用一种最温柔的想像
让自己不再忧伤
因为有你最真实的目光给我方向
让真心不再逃亡
靠在你的臂弯感觉你的胸膛
天堂就在不远的地方 一见钟情不隐藏
两颗心才不孤单
三生三世也不会觉得漫长
一见钟情不隐藏
两颗心才不孤单
三生三世我都会守在有你的地方 我真的很喜欢能够赖在你的身旁
让自己不再躲藏
在每个有风的夜晚贴近你的心房 让一切变得简单靠在你的臂弯感觉你的胸膛 天堂就在不远的地方
-1:48 PM
Watched
Stardust with Zhiyong. A rather nice movie which lasted slightly more than 2 hours. You get to see Michelle Pfeiffer, a unicorn, ugly witches, a star in the form of a human being which glows (probably more frequently when she is with the one she loves), people (or magical beings?) fighting for immortality etc. So, love can grow! It drops on you when you least expected it? The power of love can kill! Haha. Still, it is predictably ‘they lived happily ever after’ story and that the ‘good always triumphs’.
Met up with TomSumJo, Mich, Kenneth and Nicky at Café Cartel after that. Jojo can call Zhiyong ‘uncle’! Hoho. Zhiyong tried desperately to have Jojo look at the camera but this precious baby is just ‘mesmerised’ by him. In the end, it seems like I was the one looking at the camera. And I look so
dark (not duck yah!).
Kept my promise and had lunch with Kenneth after service.
God's economy --> not survival of the fittest.Much given, much demanded.Our wealth is on loan to us for God's use.Borrowing with no intention to return is stealing.Take the initiative to activate God's provision.My First Love, forever You will beMy First Breath, You're the life in meMy First Joy, the world can never take from meMy covenant with You...Precious Jesus, I am readyTo surrender every careTake my hand nowLead me closerLord, I need to meet You there...I understandHow difficult it is To handle a shattered dreamBut I know for sureThe Great ComforterWill restore your dimming beam
-1:39 PM
Joash playing peek-a-boo.
The babies?
Argh... so sweet!!!
Jojo's favourite - ice-cream!
Saturday, November 03, 2007
-2:39 AM
A dream is a wish your heart makesWhen you're fast asleepIn dreams you will lose your heartachesWhatever you wish for, you keepHave faith in your dreams and somedayYour rainbow will come smiling throughNo matter how your heart is grievingIf you keep on believingThe dream that you wish will come true
-2:21 AM
Through Heaven's Eyes
A single thread in a tapestry
Through its color brightly shine
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the grand design
And the stone that sits on the very top
Of the mountain's mighty face
Does it think it's more important
Than the stones that form the base?
So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man You must look at your life
Look at your life through heaven's eyes
A lake of gold in the desert sand
Is less than a cool fresh spring
And to one lost sheep, a shepherd boy
Is greater than the richest king
If a man lose ev'rything he owns
Has he truly lost his worth?
Or is it the beginning
Of a new and brighter birth?
So how do you measure the worth of a man
In wealth or strength or size?
In how much he gained or how much he gave?
The answer will come
The answer will come to him who tries
To look at his life through heaven's eyes
And that's why we share all we have with you
Though there's little to be found
When all you've got is nothing There's a lot to go aroundNo life can escape being blown about
By the winds of change and chance
And though you never know all the steps
You must learn to join the dance
-1:55 AM
Taken with Shuxin at Pizza Hut
Taken with Sylvia at Pizza Hut
We saw this superbly adorable baby at the restaurant!
Isn't he cute? I think his parents are amused by how amused we are by their precious son! Kekeke.
We bought this for our favourite tutor for this semester. Guess who?
She is so sweet that all the three of us agree that we would go after her if we were guys. I thought I could listen to her nag for the rest of my life?! But then again, I don't think she is that kind of woman. Think she got a fright when I said I will put up the pictures we took on my blog. But for her sake, I shall not do that. Really appreciate her for all her patience and effort!
-1:49 AM
Had lunch at Pizza Hut at Jurong Point before going to school. Although the food was of average standard, the service was awful. We waited for so long to catch the crew’s attention just so we can get our bill, and our patience was further tested while getting the change. Imagine having to pay 10% service charge for such service! =(
The Mushroom Chicken Soup we had...
My beef lasagne...
Sylvia's BBQ Chicken Pizza...
Shuxin's Hawaiian Pizza...
Lasagne with chilli powder...
Friday, November 02, 2007
-1:51 AM
Three hours spent in the cozy quiet authentic Japanese restaurant buried in the busy stretch of numerous small cafes along Upper Thomson Road. I am always surprise at how time passes when I have meals with good friends. And this is another wonderful dinner with Rus. More insights and updates. More fun and laughter.
Almost like two young girls giggling over some sharing of secrets. Haha. Moments marked by silences were amazingly comfortable – that’s how I define time spent with a confidant. Of course, there were also instances where we (or was it only I) chattered non-stop. We talked about many things – love lives (as if we have one), recent happenings etc. Actually, I was stunned when she asked about how I am doing financially. Very few people (and I know that they are the ones who really care for me) do. But one thing for sure,
God is a God of providence and provision.
The restaurant's name? Tomoe Japanese...
I love the chilli powder...
Rus' set meal... salmon...
And mine... pork cutlet...
The very colourful Green Tea Cheesecake. The white layer is the cheese. The dark red layer is filled with red beans. The green layer (what else can it be?) left a bitter aftertaste. More jelly-like than cheese-like kind of cake.
My verdict? The standard and prices of the food are reasonable. But I still find the restaurant a little out of the way for me. But what is most vital? The c.o.m.p.a.n.y...
We also saw Michelle Chia and her beau, Shawn Tan there. Oooo...
-1:38 AM
We had lunch at Cavana at Causeway Point. Was so fascinated by the peanut butter thick toast that I ordered one to be shared. Guess what? It was fried, not toasted - totally soaked (almost swimming) in oil and thoroughly spoilt my appetite. Shuxin and Sylvia were equally appalled by it. But we were all very impressed with the waitress, who was at all smiles and very patient with this group of finicky eaters.
Plate smeared with a layer of oil with pieces of oil-soaked bread.
We were doing our project in the library cafe and was politely asked by the waitress to order something. Hee. We had New York and Oreo Cheesecake, with the latter tasting only slightly better than the former. A little delighted with the presentation but... you should know the story that follows. We almost couldn't finish them.
-1:31 AM
Spot the mistake!!! Only one prize to be won!
This is the actual Mango Twister which we were served. A far cry from the picture in the menu. Feel so cheated. You should have seen my facial expression when I was drinking it. (*o*)
Lemon Chicken Rice, followed by Honey Glazed Chicken Rice (if I am not wrong). The serving of meat was miserable, though the rice was fragrant. And... the chips were no longer crispy.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
-12:10 AM
Being a gargoyle is miserable enough. Hiding a malevolent heart in that shell made it worse. How do you earn yourself true friends? Can’t you see the plank in your own eyes when you assume you see one in another’s? I feel so sorry for you… … In fact, it is so disheartening to know this. What should I say? It is utterly
ludicrous! What makes you think everyone makes friends with ulterior motives? Does that mean you only have friends who are of some worth for you to manipulate and make use of? Whoa! Surrounded by your subjects and puppets is a high calling - I mean, life is more than that for me. You do enjoy playing games? What is your purpose in fashioning all these drama? Jealousy? Are you politically sanguineous? All you know is how to denigrate others’ close-to-perfect reputation. I am aghast at your
revolting behaviour! (*_*)
Sometimes,
vulnerability is strength. It really depends on which side you are looking from.
Had my nails painted again, together with Sharon. I chose my
favourite colour though I am not fond of all its shades. Hope that Pearlyn doesn’t find them devilish this time. Hee.
Religion and culture are used to undermine the positions of women in some parts of the world? Thank God I am able to express my personality! =*)
I put "受伤後无悔的埋在不流露的脸上" as my nick for MSN and ZY actually commented that it is nice. How can it be nice??? Direct translation – without regrets, I bury my hurts underneath a stoical face. That is painful pretence! Imagine having to put up a strong front and act nonchalant when you could be stung by a throbbing ache that seems to encroach upon your entire heart? So amusingly strange!