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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Saturday, June 17, 2006
-1:08 AM
I like to gaze upon the stars at night from time to time. I take pleasure in it when I walk under the pale moonlight. I enjoy it as I stood still and strain my neck in my kitchen. I realized as I fix my eyes on them long enough, I will begin to see more of them. The not so bright ones, actually. They will start to pop out instead of playing peek-a-boo. The whole sky will then seem to illuminate with a mysterious kind of radiance. Somehow, the otherwise dark sky gradually dazzles with hope. God’s creation, for my indulgence. Thank you Father God.
The past came flooding back recently. I need to assess myself. What do I want out of a relationship, if I ever step into one again? What do I look for in that special someone? What have I learnt from my past failed relationships? In what ways can I contribute to making it work? Am I scare to commit and what am I afraid of? God will not drop a man right in front of me. Do I need to look for him then? All thanks to Sugene’s play, which I watched at The Explanade. Got me thinking. Cannot be exposing all these at my blog. Haha.
Took a number of tests online and these are my ‘results’, or should I say, analysis… interesting…
People with a secure attachment style are warm, open and trusting. They are typically comfortable with themselves and show high regard for others. You tend to be an open and trusting romantic partner. You find it relatively easy to get close to people, and are generally comfortable depending on others.
You tend to be a cooperative partner with first-rate listening and negotiation skills. Above all, you seem to try to keep the lines of communication open between you and your significant other. In your mind, it's usually far better to talk about problems as they arise rather than sweep them under the rug. For you to really feel connected to your special someone, it's important that they hear and understand you. Ordinarily, you'll return this courtesy tenfold by paying close attention to your partner's perspective.
Naivete is not the best card to play in the dating game. You take what he says at face value, no questions asked. Is that a good thing? Well, it depends on the guy and the situation. You don't seem concerned that there could be an underlying message that he's secretly trying to convey. Remember that it's common for people to say things they don't mean, or to throw in a white lie or two to avoid an awkward situation. Until you know someone's intentions, it's smart to be a little skeptical. By no means are we saying that cynicism is the key to a healthy relationship. Not at all. But a small dose of it might be helpful in the beginning. Your first inclination is to assume that his words mirror his thoughts, which reflects your open and honest nature. That's a great quality. Remember, however, that sometimes he won't dare speak his mind. Hopefully, your straightforward ways will make him more inclined to follow your lead and communicate directly. In the meantime, however, how about trying to find a middle ground? An open mind mixed with a touch of skepticism might just be the best remedy. You'll be well on your way to cracking the datespeak code!
You're comfortable in social situations that fluster other people. It is, in part, this ease that makes you a catch for potential partners. Since you may tend to pass over a potential love interest too quickly, the key for you is learning how to not throw away a keeper too soon.
In your ideal world, you would like a relationship structure that is fairly well set — one that doesn't change too often. Although relying on this routine may make it more difficult for you to cope with the inevitable fluctuations within any relationship, you're willing to risk that so you can have a strong sense of stability, security, and privacy with your partner. Because you and your partner would ideally have your patterns set, you'd likely encounter little conflict, and would enjoy the freedom to do your own thing. You desire a comfortable balance of routine and independence, and as long as neither partner's needs are being ignored, neither of you would need a demanding level of intimacy.
You're the kind of romantic partner that others truly count on in times of distress. This is true because your logical mind allows you to remain cool-headed during crises. Because people look to lean on you, you will sometimes be viewed as a hero in your relationships. People who value your calm, rational nature will make a great match for you.
Being an ISTJ means that you are one cool customer. Although few would describe you as being warm, cuddly, or sentimental, many people likely see you as an important source of support in their lives. That's because when things are chaotic or falling apart, you're the type of person who can be virtually unflappable. ISTJs like you are known for being talented problem solvers. When it comes to your relationships, you usually know how to speak up for yourself so that others know what you want. But that doesn't mean you're rigid or inflexible. In fact, you're quite willing to bend for the right person. They just need to make their case honestly.
You're one of the more kind-hearted people around. You are unusually intuitive, and you probably understand yourself, as well as others. That also means you're a good mediator — though you may prefer to spend more quiet time on your own than most. Because of the self-knowledge you already possess, you are better equipped than many to steer your life in the right direction. Understanding more about the components of your personality will reveal unique information that even people like you might not realize. And the better you know yourself, the more confident you'll be making decisions that affect your life.
