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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
-5:01 PM
I woke up this morning with a heavy heart. I had a terrible heart-ache. I was asking myself how I could ever feel this pain which seemed so real from a weird nightmare last night. I dreamt that I was crying badly over a breakup with my boyfriend. The amazing part (and I thank God for this) is that I am not attached currently. I guess if I were attached, I would be traumatized for the day and cannot stay focus for all my lessons. And in that nightmare, someone was comforting me. He was so very nice and sensitive. Not going to reveal who this guy is, though I know him in reality. Haahaa.
Maybe I have been facing and trying to handle issues of this kind. A few people asked me if I am a lesbian recently. Haahaa. Just because I am single at my age does not point to a change of my sexuality. Then I remember a few of my friends who are homosexuals. I have been praying for them from time to time. The rest is really up to God to work in their lives.
Then there are 2 guys who explicitly expressed their liking for me recently. I felt awkward actually. How am I to react or respond? I prefer a more covert approach. Then a number of my friends have fluttering hearts recently because certain people came into their lives. One of them even got attached despite the fact that they have known each other for only around three months. Is time a factor? Beats me. Still, I gave her my blessings. In fact, I bought my galfriend and her boyfriend a matching pair of key chains to 'celebrate' her new found love. Hope he is the true one.
Work is piling up. I have numerous projects for this semester. In fact, there seems to be more this time round, whether are they group or individual more. Not to forget daily homework too! God, grant me strength! Added to late days due to lessons in school and tuition commitments, I really need divine intervention. But I will make it a point to spend time with my friends and family.
I am elated over one of my friend's pregnancy too. I just sang for her on the night of her wedding dinner last November and she has a new life growing in her now! Woah! I was super excited about her new 'status' and I purposely went to meet her up when I did not intend to join her for a KTV session. I went but I did not sing. Just to see her. Just to congratulate her. Friends... what would I do without them?
