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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
-12:43 AM
Pictures first... anecdotes later... 
-12:15 AM
Went for dinner at Bugis after going to Tommy's and Sharon's place. Took a few pictures and before I leave for camp, better put a few up. Joash is so lovely. Sigh... ... maternal instinct acting up again. He has grown... so much... over 2 weeks? Much taller now. Could not hold myself back from carrying him although I was still coughing a little. His smile will just beckon you towards him. Joash works like a magnet… heehee. Oh, I was hynoptised… so willingly. Wanted to also blog about one of my Ah Dis but guess I have to wait till I am back. Had a wonderful dinner with 2 of my good friends at Sakae. Supposed to celebrate one of their birthdays. A very belated one though. Almost laughed my head off. Did so many silly things. Cannot imagine I am already XX years old. Haha. And they could tolerate my nonsense! Oh, did I mention that John says I look like 22? So sweet of him right? Maybe I am just childish. Well, I am a child of God...
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
-8:26 PM
Getting better today. Thanks to the flu medicine and vitamin C that uncle bought and nagged at me to drink. Met Stella for brunch at Yakun and brought Krystal shopping at Causeway Point. Bought her a key chain. Boy was the price steep! It costs more than $10, believe it or not. I bought this top too. Took this little princess for lunch at Gelare (not sure of the spelling) and she had waffle with cookies and cream ice-cream. Cooked dinner for her as well and got to meet dear Esther too when her family came to pick her up. Esther is sooooooo pretty and adorable. She must be a lot of fun to play with now. Krystal told me that Esther bit her Dad’s finger in the dark when she could not sleep because the air-con was not switched on. So mischievious! Loves the way her little arms try to wrap around me as she giggles. Argh… …
Then my aunt asked me if I am attached, all of a sudden. Apparently someone told her that I have been picked up by someone on his motorcycle after cell for a few times. I almost dropped. For goodness sake, that man is my ‘uncle’, Eric. The one who came to my place to bake a cake for his dream gal. He is my good friend! We have been out for countless times because we live near each other. Alright, he did try to introduce one of his guy friends to me because Eric thinks that this guy is just as nice as me (thick-skinned right?). Looks like my aunt is more anxious than me. Haahaa.
Monday, November 20, 2006
-11:27 AM
Am down with flu. It started off with a sore throat and now… hate falling sick. Everything is tasteless and the runny nose makes me look like Rudolf the red nose reindeer. Uncle bought me this pack of vitamin C tablets and nagged at me to drink them daily. So nice of him.
Ah Drew bought this for me from Japan. Looks pretty cute. And it can actually be dismantled to be used as two separate key chains. I wonder if people are mistaken that I like Pooh bear. I have a shelf full of him - was given them. My favourite is Strawberry Shortcake though. 
Dear Faith gave me this little bear some time ago. She is such a sweet and sensible gal. She never takes for granted when I offer to buy her chocolates or stuff because she will always asks her parents for permission first. And she never forgets to thank me. Children camp is coming. I want to be in perfect health and go for it. Finally I get to be attached to a group and dear Krystal is in it! Yesterday’s final meeting for the camp was great! Unfortunately, I think the air-con worsened my condition. Must really take a good rest now. Missing Joash a great deal too. Had to give last evening’s dinner gathering a miss because of my flu. Imagine the torture I had to endure. Seeing him and yet not being able to touch him. I want to carry him in my arms and go gaga over him. Haha. But I cannot. The flu bug will spread! *archoo* Just sneezed consecutively for 4 times! Am I getting any better?
Friday, November 17, 2006
-12:25 AM
Sweet Eric purposely came to my place to bake a cake for his dream gal. Zhiyong took this picture. He actually came to my place just to ‘supervise’ Eric. 
The masterpiece of Eric. He is saccharine sweet. Whoever has him as a boyfriend will be very fortunate. That is my ‘uncle’… though he is 2 years my junior. Another good friend of mine found it surprising that he addresses me as ‘auntie’, and suggested that I call him ‘ah peh’ or ‘ah chek’. Haha, just to get back. Well, I guess we are such good friends that I am quite comfortable with that.
Went shopping with Zhen Zhi and Pearlyn at Bugis. Bought this top. It is not really my style but well, we need to try something new once in a while, right?
Went to IMM with Stella and bought this very retro doll dress. Wonder when I will ever have the chance to wear it. I particularly like the embroidery, pattern of the dress and lace.
Friday, November 10, 2006
-10:22 AM
Stayed overnight with Daryl over at Michelle’s place after my vocal training. I was so tired, yet I could not sleep. Something is very weird. I had only 2 hours of sleep the night before and felt like a zombie after that. Wanted to make tiramisu and oreo cheesecake, but ended up doing household chores and lamenting to myself “Why is it always me?”. Thought I would be exhausted when I reached Michelle’s place, only to watch Princess Hours and chatted with Daryl till nearly 3am. Then I woke up at around 8am with this song. One of my favorite oldies to croon during KTV sessions. THE WIND BENEATH MY WINGS (Bette Midler) It must have been cold there in my shadow, to never have sunlight on your face. You were content to let me shine, that's your way, you always walked a step behind. So I was the one with all the glory, while you were the one with all the strength. A beautiful face without a name -- for so long, a beautiful smile to hide the pain. Chorus:
Did you ever know that you're my hero, and ev'rything I would like to be? I can fly higher than an eagle, 'cause you are the wind beneath my wings. It might have appeared to go unnoticed, but I've got it all here in my heart. I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it, I would be nothing with out you. Bridge:
Fly, fly, fly away, you let me fly so high. Oh, fly, fly, so high against the sky, so high I almost touch the sky. Thank you, thank you, thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings. Have you found such a person? One who is willing to let you shine and goes all out to make you a better person than you already are? Thought that the chorus can very well be sung to God as well… have you found Him yet?
Thursday, November 09, 2006
-2:00 AM
Finally, semester 3 is over! I have been looking forward to this ‘last’ holiday because I will be formally teaching in a school next July. I have already listed out what I want to achieve this holiday.
Went to visit Joash yesterday and attended a meeting for worship ministry at night. I think it was a very well organized and fruitful meeting. I am so glad I can wear open toe shoes from now on. Emailed other vocalists about what I should inform them about the changes and areas to work on to bring the whole worship experience to a greater height.
Actually I feel rather inadequate. Think I lack self-confidence. Sis Anna has been telling me to sing with confidence. Sometimes, I feel that I cannot do it. And we are what we think we are. So I must try to think positive so that I can act positive. To try to step out of my comfort zone and attempt new things. I must learn to be bold and courageous. Yeap!
Cleaned up my room today and got some Christmas gifts ready too. Met a good friend, whom I addressed as ‘uncle’ though he is 2 years younger than me, for a drink and cakes. Going to help him bake a cake for his dream gal. Haha. I had apple tea with him and am suffering now. I knew I should not have such beverages at night – cause gastric discomfort. In slight pain. Argh… …
Aim to meet and catch up with friends this holiday. Intend to bring the little ones for a swim. Fixed a meeting with Zhen Zhi to shop next Wednesday – more purchases to make for Christmas. Need to catch a movie with Terence. Adam too – hope he is doing well for his HR work in hospital XXX. Promised to organize an outing for Gabron and Simon as well. I have been wanting to introduce one of my girlfriends to Simon because he is really Mr Nice.
Have to prepare for children camp. Must practise ‘I believe’. Think I will be baking oreo cheesecake and tiramisu today. I enjoyed myself during a KTV session with Zhiyong some time ago too. Finally managed to sing those English oldies. In fact, we sang a number of duets. Good attempt. He sounds like Andy Lau in a few songs.
Going to date my dad. Promised to bring him for KFC one day. Feel like visiting Esther too. Gave my word to visit my aunt. Looks like this holiday will be very fruitful and fulfilling.
