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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Thursday, March 01, 2007
-8:53 PM
U :
Go and eat. I bought rice for you.
I : Ok.
A few hours later.
U : Where is the rice I bought?
I : I ate it. You told me to eat it.
U : When did I?
I : Just now.
U : No, I did not.
I : You did.
U :
Pay me $3.
I : Fine.
An sms from U to I :
I will give him (D) his red packet after dinner. Where are your manners? It is dinner time and you are still watching TV.
U’s girlfriend was there for dinner. Both of them were sitting at the table but the steamboat is not ready yet. F was watching TV as well and M was still in the kitchen.
I : D, you better come and sit at the dinner table or else you do not have manners too.
U : (With a stare) What do you mean?
You better shut your bloody mouth!
I : What ‘bloody mouth’? I do not see any blood coming out from my mouth.
U :
I hope blood will come out of your mouth soon.
I : No blood will come out of my mouth.
Dinner started.
M : A bowl for $3.
I : $3 for a bowl of noodles?
U :
That would remind her of something.
I : Do not worry. I will return you.
U : I will not take even if you return.
What is the point of reminding when you do not want it? What about the money you owe me? Asking me for $3 when you owe me many times that amount? Fine. I will return. If not for… … I would have blurted out… …
You spoilt my entire day. What made it worse? She stood by you! For years she has been doing this and I have had enough. Why? Just because you are a male and I am a female? I haven’t cried for a long time but you triggered it.
You opened the floodgate to my tear glands.
Think Uncle was shocked when he called and I sobbed. I stopped for a while and continued when we hung up. Nobody has used “bloody mouth” on me before. Nobody. To think that we were on “The tongue has the power of life and death” and you pronounced that on me! I reject that!
Wanted to blog about how great my CT (mentor in school) is and what God impressed on me while I was thinking about Him. Not really in the mood to now. Shall do it briefly lest I forget.
Mrs Theseira is a very nice and experienced teacher. Had HOD for aesthetics for last teaching assistantship and now, HOD for English. I learnt so much just by observing her on the first day! I learn something from her everyday. Actually, I see certain traits of hers similar to mine. Into discipline, meticulous, funny, systematic… But I felt weird because she did not really spend time talking to me nor giving me work to do. In fact, she rushed me to go for breaks whenever observations end. I started to question. I sms this concern to 3 people. Rus reminded me to
pray for her (believe in blessing our ‘bosses’) and my aunt also smsed me the next day. Aunt Bee Gim has been so encouraging by smsing me in the morning too. They must have prayed because without me asking verbally and purposely trying to find out, I realized that Mrs Theseira has been busy with other teachers for performance appraisals the very next day. Then she took the initiative to meet me at 1pm on Friday to discuss what we should do. My Father is the
GREATEST!
Was thinking about Him. Then the scene whereby Joash leaned towards me before I stretched my arms flashed across my mind. I was ecstatic. Sharon says he recognizes me and knowing that makes me smile. What about God? Can’t imagine His smile when we recognize Him. Be it in our work, little things, or just by calling Him ‘Father’. When we leaned towards Him, He is ever ready to embrace us (just like how much I want to carry Joash, hehe). And before Joash moves towards me, I want to hold him already. Before I want to run to Him,
He already desires to hold me close. The fact that He chooses to have and love me is WHAO!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.
