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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Monday, May 14, 2007
-1:27 PM
I did not realize I am sick! Been popping lozenges and pills to suppress the sore throat. I had to finish teaching the topics to be tested during the semestral assessment 1. I tolerated the freezing room where I had to mark (make the room sounds alive, yah?). I had to raise my voice when I teach so that the furthest pupil can hear me. And the late nights did not help. Finally, I went to the doctor. Inflamed throat and imminent flu. My ears are blocked. The 5 packets of medicine and 2 days of MC cost me $41. And I waited for more than 2 hours at the clinic, where other viruses attacked me as well. The doctor was rather surprised to see me there because the last time I visited the doctor was in 2005! It is difficult for the doctor to earn my money as I have always been a quack doctor whenever I feel unwell. Guess my emotional tank and state have been too conducive for any virus to thrive. I need to rest, after so long. I cannot afford to be sick for too long. I still have friends to catch up with. Mere words will fail to express how much I miss them! And when I am sick, I cannot see Xin Kai. That is the ultimate agony! Xin Kai is not my boyfriend. I am still, sadly, single. Haha. He is Joash. I will never want to pass the viruses to him.
Want to share this before I take my medicine and rest. Took this for fun some time back. How much truth is in there?
You entered: Tan Pao Yun Gillian
There are 16 letters in your name. Those 16 letters total to 74. There are 7 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 11
The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.
The expression or destiny for #11:
Your Expression number is 11.
The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world (my guardian angel told me this before!). Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents.
The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form.
The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer (in certain aspects, yes, but mostly I would say it is a ‘no’). Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need.
Your Soul Urge number is: 3
A Soul Urge number of 3 means:
With the Soul Urge number 3 your desire in life is personal expression, and generally enjoying life to its fullest. You want to participate in an active social life and enjoy a large circle of friends (kind of hard with limited time and endless responsibilities but I remember I used to organize class gatherings all the way to secondary school days until I felt so tired working alone to maintain the get-to-together). You want to be in the limelight, expressing your artistic or intellectual talents. Word skills may be your thing; speaking, writing, acting, singing (oh yes, I love to act and sing). In a positive sense, the 3 energy is friendly, outgoing and always very social.
You have a decidedly upbeat attitude that is rarely discouraged; a good mental and emotional balance.
The 3 Soul Urge gives intuitive insight, thus, very high creative and inspirational tendencies. The truly outstanding trait shown by the 3 Soul Urge is that of self-expression, regardless of the field of endeavor.
On the negative side, you may at times become too easygoing and too optimistic, tending to scatter forces and accomplish very little. Often, the excessive 3 energy produces non-stop talkers (I do rattle non-stop at times). Everyone has faults, but the 3 soul urge doesn't appreciate having these pointed out.
Your Inner Dream number is: 8
An Inner Dream number of 8 means: You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur (I cannot agree more for this! But I need to build my resources and capital first).
http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
