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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Monday, June 25, 2007
-12:04 AM
God has
His own timing and way of doing things. I know but I am still amazed by how I was part of it all. I remembered I promised to send Simon a parcel of goodies from a group of us when he was still in Perth. I sat on it for quite a while until suddenly (say half a year later?), I decided to get my hands working. Only learnt from Simon rather recently that the parcel got to him at the most opportune time. Want to hear the actual story? Look for him.
Camp ended not too long ago. I must say the sermons are very motivating. During one session, we were supposed to go to our leaders and tell them how
thankful we are for them. As usual, Stella had to translate, so she was standing right in front. I just walked towards her, gave her a hug, and spoke words of encouragement. I was very touched when Stella asked me in return, in Mandarin, if I know I have been her
angel all this while. Before we knew it, both of us broke down in tears. And I thought I was supposed to encourage her?
Managed to pray for dear Michelle too during church camp. If not for Sharon, I would never have known how much a
simple prayer can do. As a matter-of-fact, I am not used to praying in a group or on a one-to-one basis. Prefer to do it alone. However, we were instructed to pray in twos or threes and I ended up with this precious gal. I have no idea how those words came so naturally (it can only be
from God), it became a night of breakthrough for her.
Though I slept little during camp, the fellowship and serving together as a group made it up.
I was
near to tears. Not many have used such a word on me, unless they know me well enough. Or at least, seen the softer side of me? Most people would see me as a
tough and invulnerable woman. I can be, when I want to. But I am also soft and mild when I need to. To imagine Lee Ching used the word ‘gentle’ on me. Yes, ‘gentle’! And she was so sure when the others questioned her that she went on to explain. Haha.
I tend to get physical with guys. Okay, do not get me wrong. I usually rough it out with guys and give them a friendly hit on their shoulders, backs etc. I treat most of them like buddies. Andrew commented and asked if I am pretending to be ‘fierce’ to avoid getting hurt or something. Well, maybe, maybe… … haha. But I am absolutely sure I am
tender towards special people. Joash is one!
I am starting to let my guard down now. Not many have seen the wild side of me. Not wild as in undomesticated but more like
crazy. I get corny, blabber nonsense (funny ones, of course) and tickle others with my idiosyncratic ideas. Pearlyn, Sharon (Sim) and Wei Jing are getting the hang of it. I was at my
peak due to insufficient sleep on Friday when we went to NIE for registration and briefing for the degree program. They were laughing almost hysterically incessantly.
Want to see a wacky Gillian? Deprive her of sleep.
=p
