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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Monday, June 04, 2007
-11:59 PM
I lost it but now I found it again. Something so memorable. That wonderful piece of truth that changed my entire life. It is so simple, yet so profound. I believe it and it became one of my favourite verses.
My aunt gave me a piece of paper with a verse - John 3:16 - written on it. It was beautifully framed up. The verse is my first encounter with God when I was eleven. It was very dear to me but I lost it when I moved house in 1997. In 2007, I was given something which bears an uncanny resemblance to it. The same golden frame, blue background, words in gold and verse in the same version (KJV). This masterpiece is a belated birthday gift from a dear friend and it is hand-written. I was lost for words for a while when I first saw it. It is so precious I don’t know where to place it. Haha. As usual, I could not resist taking pictures of it. Proud owner of this magnum opus! And the evening was splendid with a sumptuous dinner and much sharing. What more can I ask for? Interest paid in full. Hehe. I have no idea why I appear so red here. Was not under the influence of alcohol. Neither was I blushing. Funny!
I was euphoric upon receiving the offer from NIE to cross over to the degree program. It can only be God at work because my results are not that fabulous. But it lasted only for a few minutes. Got this message from a person who hurt me deeply without telling me the reason – What is there to talk about? – when we used to share anything under the sun. I couldn’t sleep until 4am. I felt my heart plummet like a pebble being thrown into the deep ocean. Or was it a knife piercing through my invisible heart? What can I do to ameliorate the pain? Run away. Time to let it go. No closure, sadly.
This is more urgent. Accepting the offer would mean no pay for two years. I need to pay for 4 insurance policies other than the internet subscription fees, phone bills, transportation costs etc. What about daily expenses? Treats to pamper myself? Keke. But the pay difference is unbelievable with almost the same workload. There is definitely better prospects with another degree to your name (already have a degree in business administration which MOE does not acknowledge). Upgrading and furthering of studies is a matter of time. Should I do it now? Considering seriously.
My precious Di Dar even offered to lend me money, together with another friend. I am so touched. Not that I am that in need of money, but I do appreciate the thought. I even joked to a few others that I will have to depend on them for the next two years. Haha.I believe I can manage my finances provided I give either little or no monetary contribution to the family. What are tuitions for?
Why do we assume
That people learn from mistakes
Common sense is common
Time heals everything
Hearing means listening
And allow little things
To multiply and grow
Like awful cancerous cells
To become a menace
When we have the choice
To do wrongs right
