Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth Would care to know my name Would care to feel my hurt Who am I, that the bright and morning Star Would choose to light the way For my ever wandering heart Not because of who I am But because of what You've done Not because of what I've done But because of who You are I am a flower quickly fading Here today and gone tomorrow A wave tossed in the ocean A vapor in the wind Still You hear me when I'm calling Lord, You catch me when I'm falling And You've told me who I am I am Yours, I am Yours Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin Would look on me with love and watch me rise again Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea Would call out through the rain And calm the storm in me Whom shall I fear Whom shall I fear I am yours
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It hurts. Years of friendship blown away by a gust of wind. How fast! How sad! Just because you chose to interpret something so neutral into something so ridiculous. I am speechless. Perhaps my tears spoke it all. Why don’t you come and ask me? Confront me please! Why did you choose to believe what your brain is deciphering? And in such a bizarre manner! Stop hiding. Come to me. I want to know what is running through your mind.We can’t run away from the fact that our thoughts are tainted by how we perceive things and it is so ludicrously important to manage perceptions. But I am a very simple person. I just want to be truthful. I tried to be tactful but maybe I failed. But I wasn’t even pointing to anyone in particular. I went back to read and check. I was merely stating my thoughts. Does it mean I cannot even do that on my personal blog?Let me end this year in peace. It is time to seek God again. For the answers. For the pains. For the losses. For the gains.Joash is surprising us daily! And he is such a darling! He plants tender (and wet) kisses on my cheeks and lips (haha). He shouts for my name in sometimes a rather condescending manner (ma chiam calling for his maid) which is super amusing. He speaks Singlish such as ‘sit ah’. He imitates me by saying ‘chee chee bom bom’ in such an adorable way. He never fails to charm me and make my days. You should see him shake his butt! It's so infectious! I love to carry him although it can be tiring at times. But how long can I have the chance to hold him oh-so-tightly in my arms? He is growing up fast and soon, he will be running all over the place (actually he is doing that now) and no longer wants to be carried. So meanwhile, I will still want to enjoy his weight resting on me. Hehe. That’s my beloved godson.Had a great lunch with two friends today – my first time at Parkway Parade! I could not help laughing almost throughout the meal because the interaction was just funny. Oh, and not to forget the facial expressions! And I enjoyed the bus rides because I managed to see more beautiful sides of her.I hope I get to go for the cycling trip next week at Pulau Ubin – keeping my fingers crossed that the date will not clash with my other activities. I want to indulge myself more before school starts again. Hee.My results are not exactly fantastic but I am amazed by a few of them. It can only be the prayers of my dear brothers and sisters, and of course, His hand in my life (as always). His faithfulness endures forever!
And Sharon and I went to have our nails painted again! Mine is a dark blue with 3 dimensional flowers and Sharon's an adorable red with pretty flowers. She said that her toes looked ready for Chinese New Year. Haa. Thanks to Tommy and Joash for waiting patiently while we pampered ourselves!
Went to a café (Ti Amo) which Tricia used to work in. It is in Serangoon and there is no GST and 10% service charge. And to top it all up, the food is actually relatively good (I love the salad). It is pretty cozy too and we enjoyed ourselves other than my sheer bewilderment of the accuracy of our guess. Alright, though I wasn’t really stunned, I was quite disappointed and a little furious. I seriously think we should earnestly consider the consequences of what we allow to come out of our mouths. But what is done, is done. It is okay if you make no head or tail of what I have typed here. There is nothing fearful about telling the truths but I am just afraid to complicate things. The last thing I want to do is to hurt people.Had Ah Mei Milk Tea and that was enough to make an owl out of me. Naturally a nocturnal being, I have no reservations about staying awake till three in the morning but this potent drink kept my eyes open until half past seven. I was described as ‘skipping happily’ to and fro Joash’s room in the dark. You see, Joash was babbling almost non-stop while everyone seemed (or was dying) to be asleep. I couldn’t resist going near and disrupting him in his solitude, just to listen. Gor gor, Ah Chee (Kenneth), Seychelles (Michelle), Gi-ian (his Jie Jie Godma), she ear (sit here), K-K (Kian Kei), Jie Jie… … on and on he went. Am astounded by his perseverance in practising the art of speaking, and be heard. Poor Tommy and Sharon – the sacrifices of all parents! I cannot imagine they have to work after surviving such an ordeal (which is nearly an every-night affair).This prince was grouchy after resting little through the night. Owing to only approximately two hours of sleep, I cannot really recall what we did in the morning. All I know is that Joash loves playing with his 5 cars – arranging and lining them up from place to place. I find it amusing and wondered if this daily chore of his will end any time soon. He had his milk and bath, and changed into a sexy off-shoulder outfit. *whistle* We played a while and then it was time for his lunch. I had mine too at TomSum’s place – Tommy bought economical rice (I remember it as ‘Point Point rice’ from a friend) for us. It was his treat – thanks Tommy! Took a slow stroll home after that. Have to be there for cell in another few hours’ time. Woah! Their comfy home is fast becoming my second home. Kekeke. Zhiyong called when I was at TomSum’s place. Naturally, I got Joash to call him ‘Gor Gor’ immediately - of course this precious darling obliged and even gave ‘bonuses’ such as ‘bye bye’ and ‘ai ni’ (love you). We hung up after a brief conversation. This dear friend is so funny! He actually sent me a text after that to say that he felt much better after hearing Jojo’s voice. Hope he is not too stressed up over work. Due to his busy work schedule next week, I think it is almost impossible for us to meet up before I leave for Taiwan. He wanted to watch Golden Compass and go for KTV.Went to this Hong Kong Café just now at Marina for dinner. We commenced eating only at about 9.30pm! The food was fabulous – either that they were really good or that we were too famished to be critical about what we were served. I had an Assorted Mushroom Congee. It was more like a clay pot of rice soaked in a soup base with shredded mushrooms of various types – a little to the salty side.
Although I was betrayed, I learnt precious lessons. Still, I believe there are (only) a few I can pour my heart out to – they have proven to be trustworthy and I thank God for them. Felt being made use of at times. But it is over now. Have to move on. No true freedom. No true freedom. *lamenting* But it is a choice made.
