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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Saturday, December 29, 2007
-12:05 AM
It hurts. Years of friendship blown away by a gust of wind. How fast! How sad! Just because you chose to interpret something so neutral into something so ridiculous. I am speechless. Perhaps my tears spoke it all. Why don’t you come and ask me? Confront me please! Why did you choose to believe what your brain is deciphering? And in such a bizarre manner! Stop hiding. Come to me. I want to know what is running through your mind.
We can’t run away from the fact that our thoughts are tainted by how we perceive things and it is so ludicrously important to manage perceptions. But I am a very simple person. I just want to be truthful. I tried to be tactful but maybe I failed. But I wasn’t even pointing to anyone in particular. I went back to read and check. I was merely stating my thoughts. Does it mean I cannot even do that on my personal blog?
Let me end this year in peace. It is time to seek God again. For the answers. For the pains. For the losses. For the gains.
Joash is surprising us daily! And he is such a darling! He plants tender (and wet) kisses on my cheeks and lips (haha). He shouts for my name in sometimes a rather condescending manner (ma chiam calling for his maid) which is super amusing. He speaks Singlish such as ‘sit ah’. He imitates me by saying ‘chee chee bom bom’ in such an adorable way. He never fails to charm me and make my days. You should see him shake his butt! It's so infectious! I love to carry him although it can be tiring at times. But how long can I have the chance to hold him oh-so-tightly in my arms? He is growing up fast and soon, he will be running all over the place (actually he is doing that now) and no longer wants to be carried. So meanwhile, I will still want to enjoy his weight resting on me. Hehe. That’s my beloved godson.
Had a great lunch with two friends today – my first time at Parkway Parade! I could not help laughing almost throughout the meal because the interaction was just funny. Oh, and not to forget the facial expressions! And I enjoyed the bus rides because I managed to see more beautiful sides of her.
I hope I get to go for the cycling trip next week at Pulau Ubin – keeping my fingers crossed that the date will not clash with my other activities. I want to indulge myself more before school starts again. Hee.
My results are not exactly fantastic but I am amazed by a few of them. It can only be the prayers of my dear brothers and sisters, and of course, His hand in my life (as always). His faithfulness endures forever!
