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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
-12:02 AM
Heard too many pieces of shocking news over the last weekend. And I wasn't in the best of condition to receive them! Somehow I wonder if I have lost the ability to even respond to them. Tell me I am stoic? The questions seem to flow perpetually but the answers are lost in the air.
Monday, February 18, 2008
-12:42 AM
Somebody reminded me today – my smooth presentation on Friday can only be explained by His power at work. I mean, we only started rehearsing on the very day itself. We were almost rushing out the final PowerPoint after settling on certain issues. But I remembered that I prayed. Yes, He heard me.
Somebody reminded me today – that I am a child of God. Just like how a father only gives good things to his children, God gives me only the best. His best will take my patience and prayers, and it is worth it.
Somebody reminded me today – how much I have changed. No matter how small the changes may seem in the eyes of others, I know deep inside that it is His presence, which is forever in my life, that causes them.
“He comes to us, not to shield us from the harshness of the world but to give us the courage and strength to bear it; not to snatch us away from some miracles from the conflict of life, but to give us peace – His peace – in our hearts, by which we may be calmly steadfast while the conflict rages, and be able to bring to the torn world the healing that is peace.”
It takes grace to give godly correction; it takes greater grace to receive it.
Regardless of how we feel, our unity with Him is a fact that we must grasp in faith.
The lyrics seemed so distant, yet so close. As they flowed out of my mouth, I knew they came from my heart.
Empty and broken
As I was found
Yet Your touch
It comforts me
Crying and weeping
As I was seen
Yet Your heart
It contains me
You heal me
You soothe me
You restore me
You know me
You love me
You embrace me
Sunday, February 17, 2008
-12:16 AM
Just for Saturday... ...
Had brunch at TPY's Crystal Jade with TomSumJo. They recently bought Jojo a new set of furniture from Ikea. He sure looks studious over here, fiddling with my pen and pink highlighter.
Sent Emmie off at the airport and a group of us made our way to Parkway Parade. Had Char Kuey Teow at a hawker centre over there. Appeared mediocre, tasted delicious for the first few mouthfuls but thereafter, proved too sweet for my taste buds.
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Jojo had noodles on his daddy's lap. Act cute? Hehehe.
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Didn't know purposes can be hygienic. And what exactly is 'baby bottom'? Caught this sign on one of the walls of the Nursery room in ... ... Oops!
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Tommy made a big boo-boo today. We were in a shop and Jojo was looking at a few Larva lamps. Sneakily, Tommy told me that they had given one, which was given to them, to Auntie Liao. For a moment, I was thinking that I did give something similar to someone. Suddenly, Sharon (with a very uncomfortable expression) looked at me and asked Tommy if he remembers who gave it to them. "Think I was the one," I responded innocently. Haa... Tommy's face blushed and it was as red as his T-shirt! It was simply hilarious!
Saturday, February 16, 2008
-10:44 AM
My heart skipped a beat as he gently brushed my hair away from my face before planting a kiss on me. The sweetness was unspeakable and I had to embrace him. How can anyone be so endearing? I almost couldn’t let go of him but I knew it was his bedtime. Jojo had to wave goodnight as he entered his sanctuary with Sharon.
So much to update. Where do I start?
TomSumJo are saccharine sweet – came over to my place to pass me a packet of chocolate with nuts (I love nuts) and two boxes of redcurrant puffs from Marks and Spencer on the night of Valentine’s Day. I was rather exhausted from tuition earlier on and a day packed with thoughts about my group presentation on Friday. Their brief visit beats all other means of releasing stress for me.
Uncle delivered a special pastry to my block on Wednesday and we chatted. He was so assuring – sent me an sms to welcome me to confide in him if I ever need to. He is one soul mate and a gift from God.
Another dear friend gave me a book on Wednesday too. Glad he is settling well in his new office and I really think he ought to take care of himself. Proud of his achievements too!
Zhiyong has been very encouraging too, with all his smses. Yep, still owe him a movie and he said he has a present for me. Can’t wait to see what it is.
Went to Suki Yaki with Marie, Shuxin and Sylvia quite some time ago. We had so much fun and it was a real treat in terms of fellowship. Took many pictures but I just keep having difficulty uploading them.
Had buffet at Sakura with TomSumJo, Mich, Didar, Jerome, Tim and Nicky last Sunday. Tim challenged Nicky to finish up a plate of weird concoction delicately prepared by Mich for a hundred dollars. Guess what? Nicky did it but vomited after that. Eeks! The reminder of it makes me nauseous.
Finally, I am done with the group presentation. I am very amused by DRT and I think the feeling is mutual. I made her laugh by my dramatic reading of poems and quotations. I love to see her giggling away because it is so girlish. And she is such a nice person, I believe I will woo her if I were a man. Unfortunately, I am not and just to be safe, I better make this point – I am straight.
Am a little frustrated over unclear guidelines and instructions given by a tutor for assignments. Why do people keep changing their minds? I think DPT is an excellent tutor. He teaches explicitly, except that sometimes he comes across as aloof and sarcastic (according to a few of my friends)
CNY was fun and I had a great time catching up with relatives and friends. Took countless pictures but had problem uploading again. Met up with Dage, Wei and Erge. Finally, Dage and Wei are tying the knot. I was ecstatic! Tasked to either perform or be the emcee for their wedding dinner. Guess what I chose?
Will be madly busy with many assignments, projects, tests due. And I am trying to adjust to a rather major change taking place in my life… …
-10:07 AM
Saturday, February 09, 2008
-12:24 PM
So, is it ‘runny nose’ or ‘running nose’? I had no choice but to finally see a doctor for my stubborn phlegm on Saturday. He only asked me three questions and in less than three minutes, I was out of the room. Price? Close to $40. And I saw the sticker on my pack of medicine, clearly stating ‘For Running Nose & Allergic Condition’. Didn’t know that my nose has been working that hard!
Went to JB to do my nails with Sharon on Sunday. This is going to be the first and last time I am going to do my nails at Nail Seduction in City Square! I understand it is the festive season and it will definitely be crowded. But that does not mean that they can compromise their services (and we paid almost twice the usual amount)! I was shooed off before my nail polishes are dried properly. Worse, bits of my flesh were cut off from two of my fingers! The blood kept oozing profusely and the girl, other than looking apologetic and asking ‘Is it painful?’, actually painted a layer of base coat to stop a particular wound from bleeding. OUCH!!! A drop of agonizing tear was near to rolling out of my left eye and onto my face.
Had project discussion before going for a buffet lunch at Yuki Yaki at Marina with Marie, Shuxin and Sylvia after Monday’s 8.30am lecture. We even made our own ice-cream with the pan with dual functions. Interesting!
Papa left for Malaysia and gave a red packet the night before. He insisted that I keep it without giving him one in return because I am not working and drawing a salary technically. Well, so sweet of him right? But it is customary to give one to our parents so I pushed one into his hands.
Went to Mustafa with Justin and reached there half an hour before the clock struck twelve. I bought a new watch which is rather similar to one which I already have, except for its colour. But I really like it! Was initially having a hard time choosing between the blue and yellow one but Justin preferred the former. Bought a shirt for dad too!We shopped till half past three in the wee hours of the Tuesday morning before making our way home. Came across a road block and there was a slight jam.
Went to mum’s stall finally to take the pictures (on Tuesday). Saw a few of her favourite customers and witness the queue during lunch hours. Whoa! Went there again on Chinese New Year’s Eve after project discussion at Cityhall to help her bring stuff back home. Was going around to look for and collect her plates and it certainly reminded me of the days back in primary school holidays, when I was the little star helper in her canteen. Haha.
Friday, February 01, 2008
-11:09 PM
You have been keeping me awake at night... without me knowing the reason... how could you? I tossed and turned, and was totally alert. I find it so hard to breathe, with and without you. Why? Thought you are supposed to make me feel better? Felt like dying inside...
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Now I know. You contain caffeine! No wonder... I am supposed to feel lethargic because of my flu. Instead, I was able to concentrate for most of my lectures and tutorials. Am not relying on you since my flu is gone now. What's left is some stubborn phlegm. Almost blew my entire nose off my face just to purge some out for the past few days. Futile attempt. Self-medicating to loosen the phlegm. And all thanks to my Golden Throat Lozenges - I am able to sleep more soundly now. Praying for a full recovery.
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