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Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours
dailies
Sunday, November 09, 2008
-5:27 PM
Have always suspected but there was no confirmation nor evidence. Now that I know the truth, I cannot help but be affected by it. There are endless questions to which I would probably never find the answers. Why did it come at a time like this? How do I face them as if I'm still ignorant? Couldn't sleep on Friday night. Wanted so much to cry but I couldn't. It's so trying - following God's laws while struggling with my own emotions. Sometimes, I wish they would come clean. Sometimes, I wish I am forever kept in the dark. Sometimes, I wish I could truly remain nonchalant. Sometimes, I wish I am void of emotions. Perhaps this explains his behaviour - too hurt by someone who means so much.
Today's sermon is on Growing Deep In God Through Tough Times and the preacher emphasised that regardless of situations, God loves us. Indeed, there are no triumphs without trials and insight comes from hindsight. I need to know and acknowledge that He is in control at all times, and His strength is perfected in all my weaknesses. Shouldn't be concerned about whether there is removal of the thorn. As the preacher narrated his sister's death and how God's grace was manifested, I am reminded of my uncle's death. His departure brought my mother and her sisters back to talking terms. I know all things work for good because He is my shepherd... ... Things could have been worse!
